The Middle.

I absolutley love this song.

Not because it is a beautiful song.

But because somehow I find inspiration listening to it.

It makes me wake up and realize that even though these days without Jerome here are terribly hard to get through sometimes.

Every

Single

Day

Matters

I know that right now it is hard, but somehow each day I am finding a little bit more strength to make it through another day without him.

It doesn't mean I miss him any less....it just means I am learning how to adapt to these days.




I know soon we will be able to look back, and this deployment, like the last one, and it will be nothing but days past.

We still have to live and smile and enjoy these days in between.....no matter how much we miss him.




This package arrived several days ago in the mail.

I knew what it was before I even opened it.

To be honest.....I didn't open it for two days.

Some things, such as this, remind me that this is it. This is really happening. We are really going through this deployment. And some days, like the two days I let the package sit on the dining room table, it is better to make it through the day without the reminders.

"The Middle"

I get this feeling every year, the first days of winter
Pull out that box of souvenirs, to read your old letters
In that stack of memories, found a note you left for me
It almost feels like you're still here
I hear your voice in every word
You told me to remember

Take each day and make it last
Cause you turn around and the future is the past
Here and now is all we have
The beginning and the end mean so little
What matters most is what's in the middle

Makes me smile when I look back to every summer
You forget your birthday and just laugh; say it's just a number
But Sunday afternoons, they meant so much to you
The simple things were golden, you found beauty in every moment

Take each day and make it last
Cause you turn around and the future is the past
Here and now is all we have
The beginning and the end mean so little
What matters most is what's in the middle

The day you're born is just a start
Your last breath is a question mark
The story of your life is in the in-between

Take each day and make it last
Cause you turn around and the future is the past
Here and now is all we have

Take each day and make it last
Cause you turn around and the future is the past
Here and now is all we have
The beginning and the end mean so little
What matters most is what's in the middle
What's in the middle

 (you can pause the music on this blog at the bottom to listen to this song)

Jerome, when you read this, I want you to know that I can't wait to see you again. And thank you for the surprise phone call this morning....if only I could start out everyday to the sound of your voice. I love you baby.